If who I would be, was made known long ago, do I really have free will? Do the wrong and right choices make a difference? If I am exactly where God needs me to be, does it matter if I wait one more day to change? 

Yes, it does.

Ecclesiastes 4:6

Doing nothing leads to ruin, to disintegration and delay. Yet doing too much leads to meaningless labor and distraction, which also results in delay. It is better to have one handful enough to live and room for God’s contentment and peace than to work until you have two handfuls of labor and no room for peace. When the two handfuls of “harvests” from your labor fall through your hands, what will be left? Nothing; you gave no room for peace. The only thing you can do is work harder and harder to gain it back until the next time it runs out, leading yourself into a cycle. Why keep chasing meaningless labor when you can have an endless supply of what you need from the source, to which you always have access no matter where you are?

Ecclesiastes 4:8

Your purpose for working matters too. In Ecclesiastes, a man who has no generations to raise up to keep multiplying for God’s purpose. Not a brother or sister in Christ to lean on. When he asks himself, “Who am I working for, and why am I giving up so much pleasure?” he realizes it is all meaningless. He has all that wealth with no children or family generations to leave it for. He has all that wealth and not a trusting soul he can share it with. All he has is money to spend, and when he dies, what will be left? Nothing, because his purpose for doing it is all meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 5:20

When the reason you’re working is for God, and the fruits of that labor are met with one handful for means of living, and one handful with the God-given gift to enjoy it, that’s when it means something. When we choose to work for our own gain, work for our own selfish reasons, it will never be enough. some wealthy people have the physical financial strength but a weak spirit. What good is a vessel with no soul?

Ecclesiastes 6:7–10

If you can have all you want, get the money you need to spend, and gain the things you think matter on your own, then why choose God? If a wealthy man has everything he could want, yet he keeps reaching for more, shouldn’t that tell you it isn’t enough? Yet, we see a man who appears poor under the sun living in peace; aren’t you curious where he gets that from?

“Everything has already been decided; it was known who you would be long ago, what each person would be. So, there’s no use arguing with God about your destiny.”

This is my point. When you deny God, reject His guidance, that is your exercise of free will. God died to give us a choice. Not that we owe Him, not that we must live a certain way, but He died to let us know there’s another way. You don’t have to keep chasing. You don’t have to give in to every fleshy desire. He gives us a reason to turn down sin. If we did what we do and had nothing coming after us, nothing watching over this world, and this wasn’t for a greater purpose, then maybe there’d be no reason to change. That’s not the world we live in. Jesus loves you and wants you to know you don’t have to keep living in sin. Although it feels like all you have, Jesus says you have a way out and a reason to turn down sin. You can stay right here and experience more than you ever would chasing meaningless things because God wants to give you real purpose. There’s something in you that is needed in this world, yet you’re delaying that with your free will.

Arguing with God looks like chasing money. Arguing with God looks like being selfish, being greedy, and overworking. Maybe even being lazy. Who you would be, the reason you were here, is already decided. You can change what you choose to do with this life, but you can’t change why you were given this life. You have a desire in you that can only be filled with God-given purpose because that is what you were created to live in. We think we know how to fill it; we go and fill it with money. We go and fill it with people. We go and fill it with drugs. It will never feel like enough. You can fulfill every desire, but what you’re filling yourself with is temporary. Not only right now, but when you die, you would have lived a life that was spent satisfying your own needs. That is your free will. Your free will is your ability to not choose God. Yet, you will always have that feeling inside of you that these worldly things can’t seem to touch. You will never have lived a life that was truly purposeful in the way God intended for you. Not that you can’t enjoy and find purpose in other places, but God has something planned for you that no human can level up to.

So my love, allow God to make you whole in the way you were designed to live. You have your purpose written on the blueprint of your heart, and only God can tell you how to fill that. Your free will is your ability to choose. If you choose God, you will have peace in knowing He has plans for every step and knows every true desire of what your heart needs. They never said this would be easy; if it was, we wouldn’t need Him. Live your life with God’s will, guidance, and His peace. We were never meant to do this alone.